Monthly Archives: January 2012

Going dark for the day.

Snow day again, back to work tomorrow most likely.  Lots of writer stuff to do.  See  you tomorrow.

Comments Off on Going dark for the day.

Filed under gonzo political ramblings

Distraction Girl–Snow Day!

I was going to write about writing and teaching today, because I’ve had some good thoughts about how teaching remedial writing to middle school kids has helped me with my own writing skills, plus a wee bit of a rant about currently accepted wisdom about teaching grammar (hint: some claim explicit grammar instruction doesn’t help student writing problems; I think there’s more to it than that and I strongly disagree with that particular conclusion).

But…we’ve got a snow day and I am here alone for most of the day.  I’m as bad as my kids when it comes to big fluffy snowflakes, even down here at home and not in the mountains.  I have things to work on that I’ve not been able to get to due to not feeling well, and later on I’ll be going out to writer’s group and hanging out with other writers, which is something that just hasn’t been able to happen for a while due to scheduling.

So here I am, working on some job application materials.  The bird feeders are full and there’s major squirrel and bird action happening around every feeder.  Occasionally we’re getting heavy flurries of big fat snowflakes which turn to slush. I keep jumping up to look at stuff.  Yeah, bad as the students.  But that’s the deep dark secret of teaching…we often share some of our students’ habits (if ever you have to teach a batch of teachers, especially middle school teachers, be afraid.  Be Very Afraid.  We know all the tricks, that’s how we can counter them when it’s Us in front of the room).

Gotta love the occasional snow day, even though it causes stresses of its own (when I was working full-time, quite often I’d get the call that there was a two-hour delay or cancellation while on the road to work.  Not fun at all.  I’d kind of prefer having a more steady and predictable situation any more).

Back to work now.  Also have a presentation to prepare for tomorrow’s PLC.  So lots to do, lots to do.

Comments Off on Distraction Girl–Snow Day!

Filed under blather

Belated horse post…ground driving

After Friday’s excitement, I decided I needed to go out to the barn and ground drive Miss Mocha on Saturday.  Part of my reasoning had to do with weather forecasts and plans, but the other part of it had to do with making sure that Reinstalling The Brain had taken.

Well, it had.  We had a short conversation at the very beginning about not moving off until I gave her the direction to do so.  She asserted herself a little bit, then settled in.

My other rationale for ground driving was to spend some time working with her body without bit, without saddle or rider, to get her shoulders loosened up and reestablish that good working rhythm she possesses when in good form.  Ground driving is one of the most effective means I know of to pull off that kind of schooling.  It gets rid of the rider and bit noise, gets rid of any saddle fit issues.  It’s just you and the horse, and for once you can school the horse in fairly complex figures and see just what is going on.  No, rollbacks and sliding stops can’t happen, and flying changes are a bit complex, but turning, bending, flexing, and two track can all happen using ground driving.  Using a sidepull instead of a bit also counteracts the bit noise from the level of contact you need to maintain.  I’ve wrapped the noseband in Vetwrap because otherwise the stitches in the leather (leather noseband only in sidepulls for me) can rub a little bit.  The browband on this sidepull also tends to be a little snugger than I would like for Mocha.  But here’s a pix of the setup I use:

Some people use a saddle pad under the surcingle.  Right now I’m not too happy with my square English pad because it tends to slip on her (it was a real challenge riding with it in a horse show!) and I need to move the straps that hold it in place.  My Western pad is way too bulky to use underneath.  Plus, at some point I might want to go with a full harness and break her to pulling a cart, and I wouldn’t be putting a pad under that stuff, so….

Working in figures means that the horse also has to be thinking and paying attention to your verbal, whip and rein cues.  To some extent (depending on how you’ve trained the horse), the whip can be used as a replacement for leg cues when you’re working close in and, for example, cueing a two track lateral movement.  In that case you use a gentle tapping motion with the very tip of the whip to replicate a leg, spur or dressage whip cue.  Of course, this assumes that the horse has been trained not to freak out at the sight or use of a whip, and a whip has been consistently used not just as a reprimand tool but as an extension of hand and leg, not just a “go forward” button.  The handler needs to know the more sophisticated uses of a whip as cueing device, otherwise you might as well not be ground driving.  The whip helps you straighten out the horse, especially in lateral work where the lack of leg and body cues may make things confusing for the horse at first.

We had confusion when I introduced a complex manuever–two tracking in a figure 8, wherein Mocha had to reverse the direction of the two track.  Piece of cake under saddle where leg and seat provide the additional support and guidance to say “hey!  Start moving laterally in this other direction!”  But in ground driving, where the cues are rein, verbal and whip, it’s easy for the horse to get confused and struggle with the change.  I had to hit my center point, give a verbal “walk on” cue, then ask for the opposite direction.  After a couple of times doing that, the light switched on and we didn’t need to do more than a couple of steps of forward walk before she readily changed the direction of the two track.  Under saddle, it would have been a simple matter of a weight shift.  On the ground, well, a bit more, including a gentle whip tap.  Mocha being Mocha, and always looking for a pattern to movement requests, it took only two repetitions and she had picked up on what I wanted.

At the end I got what I wanted…a much freer shoulder movement and steady, rhythmic gaits.  I could have gotten that under saddle, but given that I also am wrestling with a shooting hip pain on one side, I’m just not always as effective in the saddle as I would like.  Ground driving gave me the chance to do this work without the noise from rider impairment.  A good thing.

Comments Off on Belated horse post…ground driving

Filed under horse training journal

Ski Day #6…In which we now resume our winter routine

Wow.  It’s been nearly a month since I’ve been back on the slope.  Not that uncommon in December or January, really, even when I have times other than the weekend that I can go up.  Between weather and health, I’ve not gone up skiing.  Hopefully this will change.  I’ve got stuff planned between now and the end of May, but with any luck the weather and health will cooperate so that I can get in multiple days a week, dang it!

I wasn’t sure about going skiing today just last night because I had another bout of the yucky gut, plus still being tired out from the cold virus.  Still, the weather report was crisp, cold and snowing, plus there’d been 7 inches of fresh snow so…yeah.  Time to go up.

Apparently half of Portland had the same notion as well.  With snow sticking on the road from Sandy on up, chains required at Rhododendron, that could have been an issue.  Fortunately it looked like most folks were being sane and chaining up as needed.  Still, we had the major ski bum rush hour through Welches, and the parking lot at Timberline was filling up fast even at 8:30.  One idiot sped past me (already in the fast lane) at Govy, taking up a third lane because I wasn’t going fast enough for him (going was slick enough that I was pacing a car in the slow lane because I wasn’t sure about them….and didn’t want to climb up the back of the car in front of me).

But once we got up there and started pulling on our ski boots, all was good.  Chatted with the folks around us while we all put on ski boots and unpacked our gear.  Ambled up to the lodge, did our last minute inside stuff, and pushed off a little bit before nine.  The snow squeaked and moaned under my skis and it was all I could do to stifle a giggle (too cold to whoop).  Lovely, lovely dry powder snow. Not something we get on a regular basis up on Hood.

Most of the snow had fallen since the slopes had been groomed, so for the first few runs, there was lovely soft powder on top of a groom.  DH and I tackled a couple of pitches that hadn’t been groomed and ran silently through up to knee-high mounds of powder.  I don’t have the confidence to fly through the stuff at speed like you see in the ski videos, but a little bit of the silent running through snow over my knees is fun.

It’s also a major thigh-buster.

Still, there’s nothing like skiing in the midst of a storm.  It would have been cool to venture above the trees, but not today.  Not the first day back after being off skis due to weather and health.  We skied conservatively today but still, five runs in an hour and a half.  And then that was it.  I can remember a time when that was a Big Ski Day for both of us, especially if we hadn’t been skiing for a month or so.  It was pretty much like we hadn’t been off skis.

Gotta love a sport where experience, conditioning and practice overcome the aging effect.

Comments Off on Ski Day #6…In which we now resume our winter routine

Filed under ski bum life

In Which Miss Mocha is a Butthead

Or, in other words, a horse in wintertime who doesn’t particularly like the cold weather, hasn’t been ridden for a while, and even in turnout won’t move around after it hits a certain temperature.  It’s been a week and a half or so since I was last at the barn, thanks to schedules and this darn bug.  She’s been getting regular turnout from G. but he reported that she’d not do her usual tearing around, standing around instead.

I didn’t get a nicker from her when I got to the barn, but she was shoved up against the front of the stall with her nose right on that crack where the door first opens.  She didn’t explode out but her head was definitely MUCH higher than her usual self as she came out.  Maybe a wee bit of tiptoeing to let me know this wasn’t the usual Mocha self.

But, most of all, head carriage more like a Thoroughbred than a reining-bred Quarter Horse.  Ears forward, looking at everything.  And, of course, reacting in that classic equine drama of “ZOMG!!!!  Hand truck!!!! ZOMG!!!! This!!!!  ZOMG!!!!  THAT EATS HORSES!!!”

In other words, dramatic, sharp jerks of the head as she startled.  Pretty exciting on crossties.  Well, okay, not as exciting as a Thoroughbred doing the same thing would be (for one thing, Much More Drama And Eight Inches Taller on average).  But still, silly horse.  She actually set back a little bit in the crossties and started capering around when I was picking hooves and treating them, to the degree that I ducked out of there because I was working a hind when she got into Hand Trucks Eat Horses mode.

Being a sensible cowhorse at heart, of course, the moment she hit the ends of the crossties, she stopped and danced in place rather than pull back further.  I unsnapped her from the crossties, G muttered about it being another horse and marrying her to it while he ran it back and forth and she eyeballed it for a while before stopping her sillies.  She settled, he took it past her, and I clipped her back up to resume grooming.

Then she decided she had to poop, and, while I was scraping up the poop, squatted and peed.  Now Mocha normally doesn’t do that.  But, I figured (sighing), it might just be the first heat of the season.  Lovely.  Muttering about silly butthead mares, I grabbed a lunge line and hauled crazy girl off to the arena.  She wasn’t prancing down the alleyway but, as G said once about her, she was in the mode where she’d almost look like a Three Gaited Horse.

Once in the arena, after a circuit of walk, I clucked her up to trot.  Then it was more than a few circuits of Quarter Horse Does Paso Fino mode, or at least some sort of gait that sure as hell wasn’t a solid, smooth-cadenced Quarter Horse big trot with nice forward shoulder motion.  For a while there I wasn’t sure if I was looking at four legs or sixteen legs, and her ears were up in the rafters.  A couple of reverses (she was focused on me to the degree that all I needed to do to reverse her was switch whip hands–yep, round pen trained, got her trained to reverse on the lunge at walk and trot as well) and she started licking her lips, lowered her head to her usual level topline, relaxed a bit, and I started getting that nice swinging trot.  At that point I decided maybe it was time to throw on the saddle, and she was still tense and tight, earning more than a few muttered growls from me about how we’d Just Reinstalled The Brain, Damnit.

It took more than a few circles at the trot before she started relaxing under saddle because yep, once my butt hit the leather those ears were right back up in the rafters.  At least I got spared the Paso Fino imitation, which is a Good Thing, because that Mocha trot is one of the most teeth-jarring gaits you’ve ever sat.  I did get Grumpy Tail Switching because I asked her to bend and yield, in the correction curb with romal.  Not perfect for lateral work but actually not too bad because once she softened I could go back to single hand neck rein and I think that helped her relax.  We did a little bit of loping but most of it was jog, jog, jog, work circle figures at the jog.  Once she relaxed we did two track with haunches in and out for a circuit in both directions (four circuits in all), a good steady working lope in each direction (I didn’t even go anywhere near asking for lead changes, nope, not tonight), walk to catch her breath, and then a last jog.

A few strides into the jog, she asked for more rein and a bigger gait.  I let her go into a big long trot and started posting.  She picked up a steady, hard long trot asking for just a tiny support from my rein hand and I gave it, clucking to encourage her when she needed it.  We reversed across the diagonal several times, Mocha still trotting strong and hard, and put away quite a few circuits with her pushing through her shoulders.  I let her set the pace of it, encouraging but not pushing her to keep up the big shoulder swing and step right out.  With each circuit those shoulders relaxed and she reached out just a tiny bit further.  I kept out of her way, encouraging but not pushing.

And then she was done.  Her cadence slowed, her crest softened, and she eased back into a jog.  We jogged a quarter circle and I eased her back into a walk.  We must have walked for a good ten minutes while G lunged another horse, her head its usual low and relaxed, neck and haunches swinging big, nowhere near the same tense, tight horse I’d climbed up on.  Meanwhile G and I discussed horse minds and why she’d been acting like this.  Then we talked about the mind of the horse he was lunging (big, pushy gelding with good movement but a sneaky poop who was earning whipcracks from the lunge whip G was holding to his side and back–he can crack that lunge whip as if it were a bullwhip.  I’m envious because I’m nowhere near that good).

The horse I unsaddled in the crossties was nothing like the horse I tacked up.  Relaxed, semi-sleepy, her usual mellow self.  Mind you, none of this was scary stuff.  Regular Thoroughbred riders probably wouldn’t notice her antics.  But like G and I agreed, horses like her, you’ve gotta respect them when they get into this mode because there’s usually a reason for it.  We figured that since it was cold, she just wouldn’t go out and push herself like she usually does in turnout.  Her mama was that way too.

The other piece of it, too, is that if I’d punished her for acting like this or been afraid of her, I’d have created more problems.  By giving her the outlet to settle down by lunging her first (without allowing bucking, capering and running wild on the lunge), she was able to be successful at behaving correctly in the crossties and before riding.  I didn’t give her the chance to get wound up and crazy on the lunge but simply reestablished boundaries that she knows and welcomes. The lunge was more about “hey, here’s the routine of what I expect from you, here’s the boundaries again.”  Yeah, I could have ridden her without lunging first, but this way we got to avoid more craziness on the crossties and more drama that would have gotten her wound up and possibly even irritated.

As we went through the ride and she not only got her tight muscles progressively worked out but the structure and boundaries she’s used to got reestablished, she relaxed and fell back into familiar patterns.  Most horses prefer predictability, patterns and structures.  Mocha has a stronger pattern drive than many horses because she’s the result of a breeding program that focuses on horses who do well at working in patterns.  Reinstating those patterns in her life gives her the structure she thrives upon…so yeah, happier horse at the end of the ride than the beginning.

Dang, I love my horse.  Even when she’s being a butthead.

Comments Off on In Which Miss Mocha is a Butthead

Filed under horse training journal

The joy of birdies

I’ve always liked feeding the birds, but until now haven’t had much luck with it here in the city.  The feeders at our other house attracted mostly house sparrows with the occasional fly-by of something more interesting, but even a thistle seed feeder didn’t do much.  Perhaps it had something to do with the numbers of walkers going by our yard, or the heavy dog population, or something.  I don’t know, but what seemed to be an ideal feeding site just–wasn’t.  Lots of cover nearby, easy to avoid hawks, etc, etc, etc.  I resorted to watching crows harvest walnuts and drop them on the pavement so that cars would break the shells.

Then we moved to this house eight years ago.  The more time I spent in my office area that looks out on our big, relatively isolated backyard, the more I noticed that despite the lack of feeders, we had a larger bird variety here.  Little bit less dense, more open setting, it was surprising.  But there was definitely a finch family and year-round hummingbirds (who liked to perch in the cherry tree and sing a buzzy evening hummer song on summer evenings).

Nine months ago, DH got me some bird feeders.  And oh my, the circus began.  For the first time since I was a kid, I’m seeing goldfinches on a regular basis.  Bushtits swarm the suet.  Crows, jays and juncos war over suet.  I had to put out corncobs for the squirrels.

The bushtit horde.

The finches.

I like watching my little birdies.  And now I need to go feed the ravenous maw.  East winds in wintertime.  Little tweeties need all the energy they can get.

Comments Off on The joy of birdies

Filed under Uncategorized

The Long Tail of Hunter S. Thompson Shows Up in South Carolina

First, before you get too far along, I’m going to give you a little bit of assigned reading from the New York Times Magazine:

The Tea Party’s Not-So-Civil War

Done that?  Good.  Now let’s sit down and chat about this phenomenon.

For those of you who’ve not listened to me pontificate politically or haven’t the faintest clue as to why I might have a wee bit of cred when it comes to politics, let me give you some background.  Years ago, waaay back in the dark ages of my early twenties, I hooked up with a political guy.  Ended up being an activist in local Democratic Party politics on the county and state levels, got involved in boyfriend’s City Council campaign…and met the man I eventually married.  Spent a bit of time bouncing around various partisan and issue campaigns in the early Reagan years, did two sessions in the Oregon Legislature as an intern, and graduated with a bachelor’s degree in Political Science from the University of Oregon.  Somewhere around the house I think I still have my notes from my observations of a then-new phenomenon of the involvement of religious conservatives in politics.

I didn’t continue writing up my notes and I sure as hell didn’t try to parlay my observations into a political writing career, which I now vastly regret, because I was sure set up to do it, between the U of O background and the two years I spent at Northwest Christian College (now Northwest Christian University).  The NCU background exposed me to the movement’s theoretical foundation in its early days and I’m pretty sure that if I pull the old yearbooks out and start comparing names, I probably know more than a few of the players that are movers and shakers in the Religious Right political leadership, both out front and behind the scenes.  But I digress….

At the same time, I developed a fondness for the writings of HST.  While many of my contemporaries went for Thompson’s drug writings and embraced the bad craziness, I resonated with Thompson’s 1972 Presidential campaign coverage, even the gonzo rants and ramblings, because he sure as hell put his index finger right smack on phenomena and behaviors that I had seen in the free-for-all world of cutthroat local political campaigns and in the presidential primary of 1992 (let me tell you, I spent a lot of time with my dog-eared copy of Fear and Loathing on the Campaign Trail that spring).

Well, Thompson had played the same sort of games that I had, and being that he lived in Aspen, another one of those sneaky little local incubators of Big Political Impacts, he nailed some trends that we are still unfolding.  I still think HST is underestimated as a political analyst, mostly because of his popular culture image as a drug-addled gonzo writer, and not taking him seriously is a big mistake on the part of many political thinkers.

Especially when I encounter a quote like this in the NYT:

“You’re starting to see some of the Tea Party folks getting into that realm, becoming political consultants,” Bill Connor, a Tea Party activist who’s backing Santorum, told me when I visited his home in Orangeburg. An Army Ranger who was the senior American adviser to local forces in Afghanistan’s Helmand province, Connor looks a bit like Roger Clemens and projects a stern sobriety. “Being around politics, it’s like a drug,” he said. “People love having their name in the paper, getting attention, having people suck up to them. And that’s happening with the Tea Party.”

(Emphasis mine).

Um.  Folks?  This is what HST wrote in Better Than Sex: Confessions of a Political Junkie:

Not everyone is comfortable with the idea that politics is a guilty addiction.  But it is.  They are addicts, and they are guilty, and they do lie and cheat and steal–like all junkies.  And when they get in a frenzy, they will sacrifice anything and anybody to feed their cruel and stupid habit, and there is no cure for it.  That is addictive thinking.  That is politics–especially in political campaigns.

We talk about religious conservative dog-whistles.  Well, that little quote from the NYT is a dog-whistle to me, and what that tells me is that this 2012 presidential campaign year is gonna be taking us all on a ride, the likes of which we haven’t seen since 1968 and 1972.

When you have a Tea Party activist either consciously or unconsciously referencing HST, you need to sit up and take notice.  This ain’t the lace glove type of political activism.  This is all out bad craziness.  The Tea Party is moving from being a manipulated tool of consultants to its own self-conscious, self-aware movement with leadership that’s going after the brass ring for their own gain.  The monster is starting to wake up, and it’s turning on those that would manipulate it for its own ends.  It’s already devoured and consumed Sarah Palin, and Newt Gingrich’s getting ready to join Sarah in the shadows of history.  The manipulators are now becoming the manipulated, and while they may not like it, well, that’s the way it shakes out.

It’s going to be interesting to see what happens to those cynical manipulators who funded the movement that created the Tea Party.  It’s also going to be interesting to see what those of the Tea Party who survive this spring’s brouhaha end up doing as they swallow their stiff jolt of the realities of practical political activism and governance.  Because it does appear that, rhetoric aside, some of the more thoughtful and less corrupt members of that crowd are waking up to realize that it’s one thing to talk about slashing taxes and another thing to actually govern.  Especially in a government eviscerated by the ideology they originally espoused.  The transition from ideologue to pragmatist can be traumatic for many and, if they aren’t getting the cash incentive to stay an ideologue, well…that sort of cold dark night of the soul leads to some damn painful awakenings.  It’s damn easy to tear the structures down, but if you tear them down and then have to try to run the damn place after you’ve ripped it apart, suddenly the siren call of a weak ideology is much less appealing.

For right or wrong, many of the Tea Party activists had genuine concerns and passions fueled above and beyond simple reactionary bigotry.  Getting into office is the best damned wakeup call some of those activists could have encountered.  In retrospect, 2010 may not have been the triumphant prelude to domination that the covert funders of the movement hoped for, but the beginning of the end.

Let’s hope that it really does lead to a greater awakening.

(And why do I sense that the ghost of HST is cackling maniacally from beyond the grave?)

Comments Off on The Long Tail of Hunter S. Thompson Shows Up in South Carolina

Filed under gonzo political ramblings

Not much blog action today

I’d planned to have an 8 am meeting this morning.  But when I checked work e-mail this morning, I found it’d been moved late yesterday afternoon.  Sigh.  I’d gotten myself psyched up for this meeting, as it’s kind of important to me.  Oh well, such is life.

That meant I really wasn’t thinking about blog posting since that little change was going to interfere with the time I’d need for a morning blog.  So, instead, in regrouping, I decided it was time to go over to Goodreads and update my book reviews.

So if you’re interested in what I think about Isaacson’s biography of Steve Jobs and Stephen King’s 11/22/63, well, there’s two short reviews over at Goodreads.

11/22/63

Steve Jobs

Comments Off on Not much blog action today

Filed under book reviews

Guest post over at Chronicles of the Tree, Mary Victoria’s blog

Squee!  My guest post on “Place as Person” for the River anthology is live

here!  Go over and read and comment!

Comments Off on Guest post over at Chronicles of the Tree, Mary Victoria’s blog

Filed under writer squeeee!

Sliding back into the groove

It’s surprising how quickly some things can change, almost overnight.  I’ve gone from being completely blocked on writing and professional fronts, flailing about to find solutions to–what is probably making me feel best of all–the ability to be creative again.  Funny how that works.

It’s not that things have magically improved in my work life, which is the biggest negative  at the moment.  Right now everything is conspiring to make this the craziest, most twisted and positively most awful year I’ve ever had in this job.  I got slammed with a couple of things yesterday that, if I’d been hit with them sooner in the year, would have either sent me out the door screaming or dictated a resignation letter.  Instead, I buried my head in my hands for a moment, took a deep breath, then said, “Okay.  What next?  What else can happen that will make this year worse?”

(Because trust me.  This year really is the sum of every bad teaching experience I’ve had on an individual event basis all wrapped together.  I have no illusions that the universe will stop dealing me crazy cards.  Dear Universe: I GET IT.  MESSAGE IS RECEIVED.  I’M WORKING ON IT. KTHXBYE.)

Is the turnaround because I’ve come to a point of no return?  Or is it because I’m finally seeing my way out of things?  I don’t know.  I do know I bottomed out a bit over the weekend, thanks to the utter misery of this damn cold added to whatever is going on with my gut, and then started clawing my way out of it.  I made some decisions and took some actions.  I dumped a bit of the physical chaos in my home office and started making lists and a schedule.  It’s amazing how rewarding the act of being able to cross off things on a list can be.  It’s amazing how forcing yourself to impose structure, to take the time away from the crazy din of twenty different tasks that SHOULD BE DONE INSTEAD OF IMPOSING STRUCTURE and making that structure happen instead simplifies life.  How much the little structural things end up solving all the other tasks.

So yesterday morning I was able to be creative.  I spent the morning writing time productively crafting worldbuilding outlines and plans for Netwalk’s Children.  I think this novella might end up being the best piece in The Netwalk Sequence yet, just because I’m finally able to articulate some of the core issues that have been slinking around undercover about the whole damn thing for so many years.  We shall see if my writing is able to stand up to the ideas.  I know how when I wrote something significantly affects the quality of the story, and the sad fact of much of the Netwalk stuff is that it has not been written in sequential order.  It’s been bits and pieces pulled here and there, and even deft rewriting can’t cover up the differences in craft, at least not to my eye.

And I channeled my inner Sarah Stephens.  I know that character very well, god knows I’ve lived with her for twenty-three years.  I still don’t know all of her life and the things that twisted her into the brilliant but manipulative bitch she became in Netwalk and later stories.  But I know what the initial twist was, her ultimate soul-searching gut check that damned near killed her.  And occasionally it’s helpful to pull on aspects of that personality to help me get through the day (like, say, last night’s snark.  Which was more about work than about the rejection letter.  I can be very good at displacement).  Sarah is a construct but she’s a useful construct for those moments when it’s damn the revolution, bring on the apocalypse.

That doesn’t mean there won’t be things that won’t utterly shred my soul and bring me to my knees.  I know that.  There’s no way escaping how some deaths will eventually do that to me.  One death will do that for certain and is statistically likely to happen before mine (Mocha).  The other is a statistical probability but one of those things that you never know (DH) who goes first (and will definitely shred me to pieces), and the other (DS) would be a tragedy.  Those things just are.

So yesterday was a day for blowing up logjams and getting things done.  For moving on issues I needed to clear out of my head, and facing new obstacles with a grin.  I’m not quite up to a Rolex 4-star cross country course when it comes to the crazies, but it’s getting there.

I know where I’m going.  How that path happens, I don’t know.  But the way is starting to clear.

And meanwhile, it’s off for more plot noodling on Netwalk’s Children.  Oooh, I can hardly wait to start writing this one now!

Comments Off on Sliding back into the groove

Filed under deep thoughts